i very very very pissed off ytd!!! arghhhhHH! my father dun allow me to go welcome li jia wei!! ah! so angry. almost quarrel wif him ytd lor. but as usual. is i ren him de lor. felt lyk shouting at him but if i do tt, my mum will be in trouble too. cos he will nag n nag n nag n nag n shout until mei wan mei liao. even he is in da wrong he will also argue until he correct de. the whole world only he is correct meh. gnakghadfklghsdklfnhasdl(sorry mus fa xie awhile) actuali if bu si my mum, me n my siblings ren him hor, our family will be quarreling v often already. when i felt lyk defying him, i oso try to stop myself n ask myself to think bout my mum. cos in the end my father will shout at my mother y she nv stop me from doing tis or allow me to do tis n stuff. or i will oso force myself to think tt my father is working v hard so tt we can hav money to spend n go sch, he mus be v xing ku. but ytd was jus sucky for me.

hais. sometimes jus felt lyk crying out loud n shouting out loud but im a weird person. i jus cant squeeze any tears out. i will owaes keep things to myself n bury it deep in my hart. even if im sad, i dun usually show it out. i dun wan pple to ask me y. cos sometimes even me myself duno the reason. ive tried screaming into my pillow. but it doesnt seem to work sometimes. i hav alot of xin shi but i dun lyk to spill it out. maybe i cant find a soulmate to pour it out to or im jus too lazy to write it in a diary. so sometimes i look v moody/dull is not becos im tired, jus tt im brooding over my xin shi n tinking bout it. n i dun even noe tt my face can show out tt i hav alot of xin shi. until tt time esther told me her father say i look lyk i hav alot of xin shi =x ya but tts true lor. hais i wan to try to be happy n let go all my xin shi or dun try to tink bout it for one day but i cant n i tink tts the weakness of mine. even go shopping wif frens halfway thru will suddenly become v quiet n start tinking bout sth. now dere's one more xin shi to add to my load. hais guess tts a little secret of mine ba.

frens if u read tis blog pls dun ask me aniting bout it. thx i will appreciate it v much. i dun wan to be reminded of it. luv ya guys

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